Post by callmemansa83 on Oct 15, 2015 16:22:52 GMT -8
I know I'm wrong for getting mad at my son for not wanting to spend time with me, but I can't help it...
He it too young to understand the sacrifices and things I have had to go through just to be in his life...
Too young to know that all my legal troubles, all my incarceration and the reason I am on house arrest now
all had to do with me doing what I had to fighting this system and being here for him...
At times I feel like he turned his bacc on me for choosing to be with his mother and her
boyfriend (who he refers to as his step dad *rolls eyes*) more often than me...
I tell him stuff like if he doesn't want to be around, if he doesn't want to see me he doesn't have to...
I told him that and if he didn't want to see me every again he doesn't have to, that was like 15m ago...
I try not to get upset and i tell him that it hurts my feelings to sit here and listen to him on the phone
"Mommy I dont wanna stay here, I wanna come bacc to the house" but everything was fine a hour ago when we were outside playing...
Everything is fine when I let you on my computer, or let you play on your tablet or your granddads laptop (He is on punishment from electronics due to bad grades...)
Just felt like sharing my thoughts hopefully I'll feel a little better and think about his feelings and the fact he is only 9...[/sigh]
Unrelated to my post but pretty much sums my current mood: #Thuglife